Drive unhappiness away

The problem is solved when I think I am everybody. There are no others. There is no jealousy.

The mind divides. The soul identifies.  

Earth, Sun and the Moon

I live in this half spherical dome
Painted blue from the inside,
A ball of red fire rises from one corner daily
that we call the sun.
It goes all the way across the diameter
When the ball sets down
Another soft white ball appears
That we call the moon.
The blue dome become sprinkled
with spotty shining spots we call stars
and the moon dances in between them.
Every day the same spectacle appears.
Oh, the rising and setting of the fire ball
and the mingling with soft vapors called clouds
makes such beautiful patterns and color mix.
The dome takes orange, violent and ash colors
All this is possible because of the great fire ball.
Sun!!! I am in love with you.
When the soft clouds get heavy with moisture
they form colorless liquid drops that fall
on the solid ground called Earth.
On this ground is where I live.
This spectacle we call as raining.
When it rains the sun is hidden behind the clouds
It gets too dark and when the clouds
have exhausted themselves
the sun comes out from hiding.
The sun and the clouds play the
hide and seek game.
Mostly we people are busy with ourselves
on earth but some fall in love
with these spectacles happening everyday.
Everyday the great Sun brightens the day
These hours we call morning.
There are some flying winged animals
we call birds and there are green solid
semi conscious fixed woody beings
we call trees.
All nature is so happy with the coming of the Sun
It is beyond description
Lately, my body is responding
to Sun just like a bird
who sings soft tunes in happiness.
Like a tree fresh from night sleep.
My body when touched by those
beautiful rays of light and warmth
responds to the grace with love.

All nature is connected by this
inner divine feeling called love.

I thank thee for giving such peace
when love is missing the being
dries up like a waterless seed.
Love is like water to the seed.

When the sun sets on the opposite of rising
the stars slowly take off their mask
and shine and dance.
Some fall in love with the moon and stars.

The light from stars
takes several years to come to earth.
Our dome become dark and has deep
penetrating eyes.
The more one gazes through it
the more deeper it gets.

But I say that I love Sun the best.
He is the supreme being.
Without him nothing is possible.
He is the Supreme Lord.

Love and Grace

Love and Grace of God

I see your grace in the warmth and light of the morning sun
Love and grace of you Oh Supreme being;

I adore you Oh Lord;
Giver of inner happiness.

My life is one day of consciousness
broken by several earthly nights
Each earth day an opportunity
of advance and union and adoration.

When I see light of the sun
I adore you.
Without the sun is anything possible on earth?
Creator of the cosmos
Sun is love, Sun is light, Sun is grace
It is a dream that our life on earth
is so perfect and life at all is possible.

I meditate on your love and grace
Inevitably you pull me deeper and deeper
Sweetness drips into me like honey into lips

Everything on earth responds to the Sun
you are the breath of life to every leaf and flower on earth


Those human beings who forget your grace are unhappy;
In simplest things that we take for granted
there is incredible grace.
Why should the Sun appear at all?
But he does, what a wonder!
Is it not a act of love and grace?

The more I recognize your acts of love and grace
the happier I become.
Love and grace of God
Love and grace of the Divine

Those who are absorbed about themselves
worried about their happiness
do not see your acts of love and grace;
they take things for granted
and seek things beyond their scope in external world;
Unhappy are they who do not appreciate you.

Maker of the cosmos,
wonderful galaxies and unknown worlds
I see you in the Sun.
It is said that you are brighter than a thousand suns;
Love and Grace of the Divine.

I see your love in the smile of the child;
In the love laden lick of my dog;
In the pleasant breeze touching my cheek;

Love and Grace of God.
Loving you leads to bliss.
Your consciousness is bliss.

To meditate on your love and grace
is the easiest way to taste your bliss.

Love and Grace of God
There is certainty in your love
as opposed to worldly joys.

Hope for India are its leaders

It was on August 15, 1947 that India got Independence from more than a century of British rule. India and many other countries that were colonized suffered severe economic, cultural and spiritual decline. The British used all tools to break the back of the spirit of the colonized people. In their drive to exploit and maintain economic and racial superiority, they have destroyed all life supports of the colonized people. As I read the autobiographies of Gandhi, Martin Luther King and Nelson Mandela, I realized how generations of people suffered racial discrimination and unfathomable suffering.

Economically India had a fine fabric and cloth industry before the British occupied.  The British would export all raw cotton from India to England and then sell the finished products to India in return making huge profits and killing the local industry. All kinds of injustices were levied. The people have borne all these suffering for a hundred years and at last under the leadership of great leaders selfless like Mahatma Gandhi, Tilak, Nehru and many others, the country got independence. This was only sixty years back. Just imagine the jubilations on the independence day and the aspirations of the people of free country. I am sure every one aspired for a country where inequality and other injustices will somehow end and people will come to realize their brotherhood and humanity and reject communal-ism and other narrow mindedness.

On this momentous day the first Indian Prime minister Nehru asked,"Long years ago we made a tryst with destiny, and now the time comes when we shall redeem our pledge, not wholly or in full measure, but very substantially. At the stroke of the midnight hour, when the world sleeps, India will awake to life and freedom. A moment comes, which comes but rarely in history, when we step out from the old to the new, when an age ends, and when the soul of a nation, long suppressed, finds utterance.

It is fitting that at this solemn moment we take the pledge of dedication to the service of India and her people and to the still larger cause of humanity.

At the dawn of history India started on her unending quest, and trackless centuries are filled with her striving and the grandeur of her success and her failures. Through good and ill fortune alike she has never lost sight of that quest or forgotten the ideals which gave her strength. We end today a period of ill fortune and India discovers herself again.

The achievement we celebrate today is but a step, an opening of opportunity, to the greater triumphs and achievements that await us. Are we brave enough and wise enough to grasp this opportunity and accept the challenge of the future?"

We have made great strides in science and technology, revived many life streams for proper functioning of the country. We have a proper functioning democracy where people are free to choose their representatives and hope to see their aspirations and hopes realized. But the culture and the spirit of the people which was deeply injured could not revive soon. For a culture to revive we need good education and government services that can kindle and empower the spirit of the people. Still India is poor. Vast majority of people do not have access to any education and health care, which are available and free in western nations.

The burning desire for free India and emancipation that was in the hearts of the freedom fighters has evaporated with the travel of time. Having the freedom, people no more think of the country or of social good. They have become self absorbed, It was a natural consequence after independence for the people were devastated by the economic policies of the British. People had to find and revive a way to live and fend their families. The government was not strong enough. Leaders were hostile to the idea of capitalism after experiencing the exploits of the colonizers. Nehru was more inclined towards socialism which promised equality and class 

extinction. Unfortunately, this did not create a favorable climate for private investments and competition. The state owned industries made major investments and employment. However, this was not enough for the vast majority were unemployed and also killed private competition. 

When people are scrambling for money, they become corrupt. Each family thinks of itself, to survive and see the next day. Let us not forget that during the British rule millions died in famines. It is sickening now even to think of a situation like that. Whatever the conditions were, Indians have become self absorbed after independence. The spirit of Nationalism is diverted to communal ism and joyfully exploited by some politicians. 

Now politicians promise televisions and free dinner in return for votes. Corruption, rowdyism and whole breed of indecent behavior, blaming each other regional parties has become the new norm. No one takes responsibility. To the rich man of India I ask this question: Is it good for your son or daughter to move in a rich car and live in a rich neighborhood surrounded by 

children that live in shanties and walk bare foot and beg and live in dire straits? All the money that the rich and powerful hoard for their children will only be a false security. When people all around us are unhappy how is it possible for us as humans to be happy. No matter how apathetic we are, there is a always a small part of us that is unhappy about the surrounding and people who are suffering. 


Cultural Amnesia

Culturally too, India has hit a new low after the Independence. With vast majority in poverty, how can the poor man think of society? But now that the country is reviving economically, it is imperative that at least some take this opportunity seriously. India should be a new light and people in this country should bring new hope for the world. This country that is the mother to two great religions, Hinduism and Buddhism should revive its past glory. We have to bring to India  pragmatism of the west with the wisdom of our eastern philosophy. 

We humans forget the past and with poor education, the youth loses touch with the lives and  histories of its great leaders. Each generation needs new leaders who can be examples of purity and sacrifice. India is in need of such great leaders now. It is when the majority feels safe and comfortable and forgets the responsibility, that a keen leader shows thorough is example of purity and sacrifice and knowledge that our mission has not been accomplished. our mission has not been accomplished till the poor of India get good education and health care, till our culture is not revived and till the distinct character of the nation is not expressed completely in the world. 

Now we see rampant corruption, crime and lawlessness and brutality of the politicians. Hoarding of money to win the next election and inciting majority against the minority and divisive politics has become the norm. We need a leader who can  bring unity to its peoples.

With power comes responsibility and in a democracy when power is misused their should be mechanisms to curb them. If there are none, new leadership with the help of tireless lovers of democracy should bring that change so that no minister or powerful person can use his power indiscriminately and irresponsibly and go unpunished.  

Indian economy is reviving but the underclass has no support. The government has to do a better job of bringing equality in the population. We need good schools and health care access for the poor. We need a government that works for the poor and not for corporate welfare. Naturally, the failure of the capitalistic economy is that the powerful and the rich have control over vast majority of resources in the society. They have great influence over commerce, business and politics. This is where new great leaders can bring a change. New leaders with the help of new uprising can put pressure on the politicians to bring about changes for the good of the people and not the corporates. Of course, corporates are also a part of national life. But

policies should not be inclined in making the rich richer and poor poorer. In the long run

this calamitous even to the corporate interests for the poor will one day riot the corporates if all their needs are neglected. 


Capitalism and its drawbacks

Capitalism encourages creativity and it has its place in economics of the nation. But it has its limitations. Welfare economics and role of government is also essential. Equality cannot be brought about only with capitalistic system. The countries that are most equal are the Norwegian countries where they have a huge safety net for the people. The role of government is huge in India. But at the same time one has to be weary that a corrupt government cannot bring about the necessary changes to education and health services. It is imperative that 

the government has to be cleaned of its corrupt practices. No corporate has the money or the willingness to bring changes to the educational system in the country. The corporate have  to show profits to their owners. Their job is not to bring clean water, good health and education to the people. It is only the government that can bring these changes. 


Politics is a complicated and rival game. Man is ruthless when it comes to acquiring and maintaining power. But love of our country should override party politics. Politics should not be a weapon to divide people. No matter who the creator is, we all have the same one and what religion we follow does not make a difference to the creator. Divisive politics should end. 
To be more specific, I would like to comment on the BJP party. Recently their have channeled their energies towards teaching a lesson to the separatists in Kashmir. Knowing the history of disputed area from more than half a century the BJP leadership is playing divisive politics to gain more votes for the next election. This kind of politics are most injurious to the country now. If BJP wants to rule the country and come to power, they have to follow and obey the constitution of India and respect the right to live and choose for all peoples of India. They have to stop this bullying the people of other religions. India is a secular state and they should refrains from all these useless activities. This kind of aggression only brings bad rap for the whole hindu religion, which always was open to other religions and to a pluralistic society. 


New leadership needed

I am very hopeful that new leaders will emerge and also with the help of selfless people will bring about the policy changes in the functioning of the government. No matter who it is, if one is corrupt and misusing ones freedom, the right place is the jail. One cannot be free and also 

bring harm to the society. All are equal citizens. No human can empower and suppress others. 

For the good of ourselves one has to do everything in ones means to help these selfless workers and leaders for the future of our children is depended on a clean government. The future of our children is not dependent on how much money we hoard of them. What is life  when there is poverty and suffering all around us and we alone live in a golden castle.  
At the same time our leaders should know our people and their religion. Since India is a vastly religious country, our leaders have to know our people and their culture. All the great leaders of the independence movement knew and revived the culture with the help of religion. Although a secular country, there is still a place for religion that is pluralistic and open to other religions. 

I agree that there are limits for what an individual can do for the society. No matter what the limits there is some responsibility of every citizen to care for the society. After all the society is also our extended family. We have to revive the burning spirit of the selfless freedom fighter who fought during hostile and adverse situations. Let us not forget the great sacrifices of thousands of unnamed citizens who gave everything for our freedom. Let us live up to their aspirations. 

Dead people

This world is full of dead people
when there is injustice happening
they let it happen.

they let the manipulator do their job.
How much suffering men has caused to other men.
Human being has no heart.
Even a tree is better than him.

He manipulates the facts for his desires,
troubles and corners weak people,
Destroys lives of all life forms.
He has no heart.

More worse are the dead people
than the manipulator,
they watch in silence the atrocities.

Dead people constantly afraid
all their lives about death.
Each moment they die
when they remain silent.

They keep their pent up anger
inside a box in the heart.
They fear their security.

They want to be neutral and safe.
Away from the struggle and strife
of a few who fight for the truth.
The dead people like to watch.

I sometimes wonder how man
can degrade so much!
His soul is dead under the pile of fear.
He is submissive to the evil.
He only thinks of his loved ones.
The dead man does not think
that the evil will strike him one day.
The evil has an eye on him;
The dead man is the last to go.

Sorrow is flowing like a river
and dead man is sleeping unaware.
deception and treachery are ever where.
Only a few fight and perish.
The rest of the dead people
have stitched their lips.

They collude with the evil sometimes.
They fear their lives.
They love their lives.
They want longer miserable lives.

Joy is far away from earth.
Dead man likes little gossips.
Talks behind others backs.
Has not the guts to say what he thinks.

I wonder why the world is so miserable
Me thinks, because the dead man
does not take a stand to speak the truth.

We all have to perish one day.
The dead perish miserable than others.
His life, a wasted opportunity.

Life is transient and temporary.
We fill the capsule of time with sorrow.
How can joy be the home of earth,
When the dead man does not aspire?
Sorrow and drama keep us going
like the poison in a wasp.
We sting ourselves to feel alive.

Death is at the exit door.
When children we are happy.
The manipulator takes us over
as we mature.
The heart has no power.
What we feel as the truth
we cannot speak or act.
Evil and manipulation triumphs.

The dead people do not want
to know the truth.
They want to live in their small world.
Their negligence will one day sting them.
They have pushed their soul
deeper into the deep voiceless.

Dead man , awake!!!
All of us live only for a short while.
Think of the next generation.
Are you going to leave earth
as horrible as you were born?
What is the purpose of your life?

Dead man! search for the truth,
Know who is doing evil and who good.
Learn to take sides with the good.
Save your soul!

Different me

The other day, jealousy swept over me;
I kept watching it. It tried to enrage me.
It told me that my friends do not care for me.
No one is giving me attention.
No one loves me.
I felt low and unhappy.
I kept watching it and
went out to take a walk and fresh air.

The next day, I saw a beautiful woman,
in a bar restaurant.
Lust told me to elope her.
I kept watching lust.
That beautiful women had fair skin
and contrasting black long hair.
Our eyes are hard wired to like contrasts.
But my eyes saw her skull too.
Behind the contrast is blood and bone.
The complete picture of nature.

To fulfill desire and emotion
we are forced to act.

This day I felt  was a long day
Maybe I should have a friend to talk
These days my practice and inner disciple
are out of schedule.
So I took a decision
to spend some time after the shower
in my room and delve within.

I was talking about God
with my uncle on the telephone.
If one does action there is attachment
If one does not one is poor
Right action is a great skill
Even the wise get confused.

If one can tap into inner bliss
and let the mind and nerves
have a taste of it, then the desire
in the hard wires will give way
to the memory of the silent sitting.
These psychic memories
are the most pleasurable.
All burden is taken away
as if when one floats on water
the body feels weightless.

When not happy, there is sorrow
To be bored is to be unhappy
Boredom is unhappiness of mind.
One has to take a stand against sorrow.
I do not want to be one more
sorrow soul on this overburdened earth.
I fight the sorrow in my mind.
After all there is bliss within me.
Why should I run out to get it?

My mind became silent and peaceful
after this inner exercise.
How lazy and foolish we are
that we do not mend the mind
to enjoy the rest of the day
in peace and happiness
instead we let the lazy mind
take over our actions and sorrow
as it creeps in from the half open door.
then come lust,boredom, jealousy.
Like drunken party friends who
talk all miserable things in life and laugh.

Next time when I watch
those drunken lazy friends of mind
I shall pick up an enlightened book
that would increase the pitch of silence
and kick the lazy friends out of my mind.

Then shall my mind be calm
and act with a swift power.
I shall watch it be happy.
My mind acts best
when it is at rest and happy.

When I go out with this swift mind
I see myself and whole nature.
I see the whole woman,
Not only what my lazy mind can see.

Nature is the power of God.
It changes all the time.

I hear the silence.
They say, if one can go deeper and deeper
a greater knowledge shall come.
I am not yet there.
But I already feel the bliss.
I have a job to soak my mind and nerves
with bliss so that they do not complain.

Discipline and practice and common sense
and a desire to be happy and peaceful
is all you need.
I want to be happy in life.
I do not want to go out
and laugh at the same old jokes.
I want new experiences from within.

Dream of a Daughter

I dream of a daughter
whom I could see
growing up from a sweet child
to a beautiful women
teach her to be a good women
share with her my sorrows
she would be my real mother
take my raving head into her soothing
 hands and calm my fears.

I see women lost in external beauty
slave to societal demands.
My daughter would be independent,
My daughter would be kind at heart
and enlightened in being.
She understands that however beautiful
external life is not everything.

I would feel happy talking to her all the time.
I see the face of the divine in her.
When a women, she would care for all children.
She would not fear knowledge
of the inner being.
Often, women fear other worldly treasures.

We would go on long walks
I will talk to her about the stars
gods,trees and animals.
teach her to be brave.

She would love her father
like nothing else in this world.
I would kiss her before going to bed.

I would tell her stories of conscience
Never to sell the soul to the devil
lust after money, fame or power.
Always use her abilities
with compassion and conscience.

When she is old enough
show her how to silence the mind
Get rid of the perturbing desires
Be in peace with oneself.

She would be the only one
who would understand me.

Soul searching

Repetition is a normal behavior  and way of learning. But when it becomes excessive the creative aspect of us becomes latent. We are so used to talking the same old things that we do not realize that we repeat ourselves everyday. To repeat ourselves and taking pleasure in known things we can built a walls around ourselves. Many adults spent years and years not learning new things. Our mind is occupied with politics, money and usual drama of life. Not that there is anything wrong is talking about politics and money but all the time about it is setting limits to what can be achievable in a life.

When we were children we were learning several new things everyday. Now we are scared of asking questions. Our boundaries are set by the society we live in. Who can set boundaries for our imaginations of the mind and aspirations of the soul? There are too many unknowables in life like what is the purpose of human life in this vast universe? Nature has developed man for a purpose we do not understand.

We need intense soul searching to understand our actions in life. Everyday I meet people who act as stereo types. People want to imitate their role models in life. Even small things like hair style and the way they dress, they want to imitate models. The way our physical body looks is of great importance for us. It is especially true for female sex because their bodies are in demand in the society. They want to look pretty from the outside. This is our first limitation, the identity with the body.
How much time people talk and waste on this identity with the body? Although we do not have any control on our aging process, we worry about changing body. All our news papers are full of news about who is growing richer, petty politics and advertisements for pursuit of happiness through material wealth.

Now humans are more than 6 billions on earth. That is a big number considering how many humans were living even two centuries back. I some times question the theory of reincarnation adopted to physical evolution of body? Where did the 6 billion souls come from? Of course God is infinite according to the theory and also can make infinite souls. The point is we have accepted a graded evolution of soul from animal to man. Not literally make souls,but He is One with the souls in manifestation and also when not manifest. There could also some jumps in souls from an animal to human. But who come we have 6 billion in number now. Looks like souls are  manifested if there is a bodies ready on earth to be born or there could be many many souls waiting to manifest on earth to get the experience of earth.

Also thinking about how matter and energy are interchangeable at quantum level, matter can vanish into energy and vise versa. On the macroscopic level, there are millions of galaxies far out in space.
One may ask why do we need to know about the range of activities in nature? From the subatomic level to the formation of galaxies? Why not worry about our life only?

Our daily lives are bombarded with information about human activities. Some people are after power, some after happiness in the form of sex, money, etc. But it is hard to find a person who is powerful and also self happy at the same time. To be happy or powerful man is dependent on others and hence the history of suffering. There is no harmony of beauty,knowledge, power and happiness in man. If one has one quality we lack the others. We try to search for what is lacking in outer life but suffering comes in return. Suffering comes because we have the wrong knowledge of the matter in question. We have not studied the nature of our desire. There are infinite number of activities going on  at any moment in nature.

What if we are all the same. What if I see myself in you. Your desires and wants become mine. Even from a scientific point of view and the perspective of the body, we are made of cells. And genetics
makes us look different from each other on the surface, but the basic mechanism of how the cells and organ work is the same in all of us. When we watch each other our attention and knowledge is only of the surface body appearance. But in case we can see the muscles, bones and the organs at the same time along with the surface appearance our actions in life would be very different.

From the perspective of the mind too we all have similar reactions and thinking patterns. All our reactions are represented in our language we use to communicate. Since we mostly have similar reactions we can all communicate them in the same language. So the mind creates the main difference in all of us. It is here that we can either build walls or break them and see ourselves in others. Mind is the seeker of knowledge and there is the vital or life force, which is a seeker of power and happiness.

The unresolved problems of one generation of humans is passed to the next. Now the problems are compounded many times. Every unhappy human being causes negative effect on the environment he lives in. It is reflected in the reaction to daily happenings in life. Our appetites to consume more resources in nature has grown exponentially with the innovation of technology. Just any other power, technology is a double edged knife. If you do not know how to use it, it can destroy you.

Now the power has come to humans before the wisdom to handle it. With this kind of power, we can destroy ourselves rapidly. The way we are doing business, we many not survive another century with this kind of population. There are simply not enough resources on earth. I mean the resources like oil which we are using indiscriminately.

As I sit in my room alone, I think about this question. Is the way of life we lead has something to do with how everything on earth is being destroyed. Our life as usual, the news, the political skirmishes,
our identity with body that is temporary, the desire for happiness, our daily chat with wifes, husbands, children, friends and enemies. Is there something there that can be related to way things are happening in the world?

It is hard for us to sit alone. We are used to constant bombardment of information. As we spend time on all this business as usual, the treat to our survival as a species has become real. We are searching answers to our problems of unhappiness in more power and technology. We have mastered some of the powers of matter but we do not have the wisdom to handle it without harming ourselves. Since we are accustomed to searching answers outside ourselves we meet several people daily to resolve the problem. But everybody is looking to solve the problem of unhappiness in more economic efficiency, technology and consuming more resources of nature.

Will the power give us happiness and satisfaction in life? We have seen in history that one group of people wanting to subjugate others as an honor of power. Our desire to be powerful give a new meaning to our life. In this life where society has not figured out how happiness can be experienced
many individuals find purpose in dominating power. Not in oneness with others but in subjugation of others. When there is ignorance in society, the citizens too choose many paths of ignorance to find purpose in life. Some of these paths could be self destructive or destructive to the society. But this intelligent being, man, who has limited power, knowledge and desire wants to find purpose in life.
A lot of people find a limited purpose in love and taking care of their respective families.

But by now, we should have already gotten over our identification of body problem and opened our love to not only our genetic family but all the people and animals and plants in this world. The dangers that we face now cannot be solved with technology alone. Our identity has to change. We have to find
a deeper unity with beings in the world. How can we get it when the knowledge of the spiritual unity is been relegated to the last benches of the class? It is on the last in the list of our priorities.

As I see it, humans are not going to change any sooner. The states and governments are too feeble to take any action until the death siren rings loud in our ears. But things could be out of control already.
It is hard to restore a natural calamity that is edging to the precipice in a short time. Global warming is one such thing. Everyday I hear new species of animals and plants going on the verge of extinction.
No one seems to be worried. Business as usual. Kill millions of turkey for thankgiving and billions of chickens and cows in factory poultry.

There are many prominent scientists who are saying that we may face many grave challenges in the future. Our way of life and pursuit of happiness in consuming more resources will come to an end.
The new future society that will come out of the soul searching and tremendous problems will have more respect for nature.

If nature has made us, there should be some way of also saving us as a species. As we species we do not need any more quantity. We need more intelligent humans. Since for humans family has become the predominant social group it has become a norm to have children. It is a great ill that humans cannot adopt other children as their own. It is sad that when thousands and thousand of children are without food and shelter, we want to make babies who look like us. We are not able to accept and take care of others children. We do not mind watching them beg on the streets. What a deplorable, pathetic, ignorant situation we are in.

But these limitations and ignorance will come at a cost. Nature will put pressure on us to change and learn to take care of nature and animals. That time is coming near. Our rules and norms will change only with tremendous suffering. To overcome such suffering we need people who are more intelligent and show the path in the new direction. Let us prepare for the day when the need will come.

Anyway, the point is that we have to learn things out of the box. We need to be happy. The mind is alway blaming others for our sorrows. We need to teach our mind the truth. Happiness is beyond the mind. It cannot come to the groping and restive mind. It can come only to the silent and peaceful mind.
To understand this needs soul searching and understanding the nature of our mind and suffering.
If there is a God, we should be able to experience him. Otherwise it is irrelevant to us. How can you believe in a God that you cannot communicate? There should be something inside us that is linked to God. And in case we have a spiritual connection, there is something in us that is hiding it. Our spiritual identity is hidden. All false identities bring suffering and real true identity can only make us satisfied.

If satisfaction cannot be found within us, there is no hope for human being. There will be perpetual wars and destruction in the pursuit of power and happiness. That can only be the logical conclusion.
But the harmony of power, happiness, knowledge and beauty can only come within. There should be a hidden tunnel, a link to the infinite power, bliss and knowledge that we call God, and us.

Is there any way humans can turn to that power instead of external power and technology to solve our
perpetual exponential consuming appetites for happiness? For that to happen a complete change our priorities has to happen. Nature has always creatively destroyed itself to create new things. We humans think we are clever enough not to destroy ourselves to change, but we are not advanced enough. The animal tendencies of selfishness has not been overcome.

Since humans are not able to change their destructive mode, Nature has to do its creative destruction to make humans understand the purpose of future man and nature.

Purusha

Deep sweetness in my mouth
Life is wonderful
Life stay this way
Purusha is the Lord
Lower purusha sacrifice
detach from mind and body
Let a higher force reveal
your true nature.
Sweetness pour into the mouth
I enjoy life in that sweetness.
I can taste it. It is sweet.
How can I keep this everyday?
Purusha learn to detach from mind
and sacrifice. know your great true nature.
Happy is life.
Know your true nature. Detach from mind and body.
I love myself. I am purusha. I love purusha.
He is so sweet. Intense happiness.
No sense enjoyment can come close to this intensity.
This is the best. Sweetness in my mouth.
Head is light. Mind is silent. Sweetness in mouth.
Lips are numb. sweetness pulls me inside.
I close my eyes. Go deeper into the sweetness.
Force coming down from between the eye brows.
Lips are sweet and tongue tastes sweet too.
I want to taste this wine every day.
Purusha detach, sacrifice action.
Do not think you are mind or body.
You are delight. You are the best.
Only when you sacrifice
you detach from mind and body
otherwise you think you are mind and body.
you lose into suffering
sacrifice and taste your own self
that is sweet and beautiful.
Purusha awaken, know thyself
you are the sweet wine
that my lips can taste.
you are not the mind or body
you are the best.
I love you. You are the best of my life.

The women in red

"I was waiting in the parking lot for the new date. It is almost 9 pm now and she asked me to get there by 8 pm. what must have happened to her. Her voice was so sweet on the telephone unlike any other women I talked before. I think I will marry her and give her whatever she need all her life. I would satisfy her to the utmost", thought vishaal.

It was a busy street and there were several restaurants,boutiques on this street. The traffic was not as bad as it usually is on this street during sunset. Vishaal was standing in front of the VICTORIA restaurant. People who passed by him gushed through him as if he never existed.

Vishaal thought, "where were all these people heading to? may be they all have a family to return to, a girlfriend or just a sweet home. Everybody goes home after work whats wrong in it. Where else can they go otherwise. all souls want to go home after wandering outside. They feel relieved when they get home this separation from home and getting back after work gives unrewarded satisfaction. 

she also said she would be dressed up in red gown. Vishaal's eyes now concentrated on everything red visible on the street. Vishaal thought," I should not miss anything red today. What a fool I would be if she came here today and I missed her because I was lost in some other lousy thought or distraction.

I cannot miss her in my life. She is the only train to the other side of my life. How great is married life indeed no one should miss the pristine pleasures of it.

Is it not the right age for me to get married? All the women I talked to were either too proud or too gullible. I want someone who is smart and intelligent. A women who can keep me happy either by honesty or trickery. I do not care. I only want happiness. When we are all dead who cares if we were happy for the right reasons. Life is too short to ask these questions and even if we ask them who cares for the answers. Just be happy by whatever means".

Now vishaal was looking at red color like never before in his life. Red was the only color he liked now or probably for rest of his life if his love showed up in her pretty dress.

People who went into the restaurant were coming with happy faces. Everybody looked happy and satisfied to him and he is the only one gloomy and lost. His future was in jeopardy now.  How sweet she was talking to him on the telephone. This telephone conversation was going on from a month now. He thought that no matter how a women looks she has to talk properly to a man. She has to know how to joke when he is upset or turn around his mood to happiness. Women was made to do that after all by the almighty. Who cares how she looks as long as she knows the art of mood uplifting"

Now it was getting too late may be 9.30 pm. Every minute was a long year for him. He was loosing confidence now.
How could she do that to him. He has given whatever kind of emotional support on the telephone as possible. There could not be anybody else who can be more decent and supportive of her future desires like him. Then after all this month of sweet talk why has she not turned up on time?

Life is a mystery he thought and time is another mystery. It drags when you really want it go fast.
He thought of giving one more concentrated and patient look to everything red in the area including the windows,neon lights, walls and people. when he has lost all hope he hid his face down and was looking at the square tiles on the footpath.

Suddenly a women came from his back and asked him if he was vishaal. Vishaal turned around in excitement, the kind that happens once in a lifetime. He stared at the women in Red for a long time. All the while she was making some gestures and talking to him but he could not hear her. when at last he woke up from this blankness and daze he could now hear some faint and wavering sounds in the air.

"Vishaal can you hear me? what is wrong with you?" said the women

Vishaal woke up and said that his name was not Vishaal and left her immediately.

when he came back home, he thought how could he get married to a women who does not look good even if she paints herself with red color. A man needs a women who looks good. Who needs a women who is intelligent and nice talking. A women has to look good and the man should feel that her beauty would not fade away like the everlasting mountains. he never picked up the phone calls again from this sweet talkie girl.

Raju: Life then and now

It was a beautiful evening and the soothing wind blew through my face. I was running along the with my dog on the hill slopes. These hills were dusty in the summer and green in the rainy season. I was only a 5 year old  kid then when my dad would take me and my dog, jojo to these hills on the outskirts of the city. I remember all those days with my dad and jojo. Dad would take me there usually an hour before the sunset and we would climb one of those dusty tracks to the top of the hill and sit there till the sun set. Away from the city, away from all the noise, the hustle bustle and drama of the city life. There tracks were actually dirt tracks made by dirt bikers over a long time. Sometimes on the weekends I would see these bikers racing on these hills. Man likes to even challenge the inert earth, make his way through the wilderness, climb the steepest mountains and jump from the highest fall. He loves the thrill of danger when his life is at stake. Man cannot rest; he needs an obstacle, a hurdle, a challenge and he has the strength and power of mind to over come the impediments.Sometimes he fails and sometimes he wins but nonetheless his spirit is unimpeded. 

Jojo was the quickest and I was next in climbing these hills. Dad would shout from the back, "slow down Raju beta! you will fall down. Jojo has four legs, she can climb fast but you have to be careful." Though we humans think we are the masters of nature and animals, Jojo showed me that it had an edge over me in our hill climbing expeditions. Jojo was a Labrador mix; I learned the love for animals from Jojo; she was a clever animal beyond what I expected. Labrador's by nature are lovely animals and one of the best dogs for a child to grow up with.

When we climbed to the top of our favorite hill Dad would like me to sit in his lap and ask me to observe the changing colors of the sunset sky. Orange, blue, golden were the usual colors. Sometimes I would see streaks of white and gray with the mingling of the floating clouds. Jojo would not rest even on the top of the hill. She would like to run, experiment with new obstacles on the slopes of the hills. I would sometimes go, collect stones and throw them as high and far as I can. Dad would smile and always caution me to be careful. Dad would sit and watch the sunset. I think that meant a lot to him. I could see that he found the peace in those sublime moments of nature.

I would run in great enthusiasm to the top the the hill and shout to my dad that our car looks so small now from the top. Everything looks so small. The tarmac road and the passing cars would look like a toy setting. I could feel the heavy presence of the huge dark mountains on the backdrop of the hills. I would say to dad, " I would like to climb those mountains."
And dad would smile and say," when you grow up!"
When one is a child one likes to achieve everything. Climb the top of the mountain, be a pilot and wander through the sky, be a truck and heavy machine driver, be a construction worker or a gardener. Everything seems possible and one dreams of being
like our dad or a full grown up man to achieve those ends. When one is young one feels like being a strong man and on the other hand, when one is in his adulthood one feels like going back to childhood and innocence. That I say is the illusion of time.

stink of death

I smell the stink of death everywhere
Death is unpredictable and a great leveler
Earth is the place for this drama
man the protagonist and death the enemy
Death is the usual winner and man the loser
One feels as if all conditions on earth
favor the tactics and ruse of death.

you are given only some time to achieve
and enjoy spurts of happiness meanwhile
As long as you live on this piece of universe
death haunts you as your shadow.
What can be done to escape this suffering?
You may die of disease, mental agony,
accident of nature or man.
Death is everywhere and every day.
Yet man treats death as a distant relative
though hears its name does not bother
to know more about it or know it.
Death is born along with life
as a shadow it sleeps with man
on his cradle and follows till the grave.
Death is body's constant challenge.

Amid the loss of lives, suffering and war
some hope for some great power to save
But suffering continues and continues unabated
Seems as if there is no end to man's suffering.
What can be done to escape this suffering?

I see some artists, musicians,bards,
scientists fighting the shadows of death on earth
and to lift the darkness
and to bring unearthly joy into life.

Man cannot escape the pinch
of other human and animal suffering.
I want to embody the goddess of happiness
on this land of suffering and death
Lift the torch of bliss on this land of suffering
Lift the spirit of the suffering man
With my energy and aspiration
bring smile on the lips of the dying man.

One feels as if earth were made
to be the land of the dead
Life struggles the earth's catastrophes
life struggles the ignorance of man
Life suffers the war and hatred
On this land of death
shall we sow the seeds of bliss
I shall embody the goddess of bliss.
Replace the stink of death
with the fragrance of rose.

By the sea and the beach

I see the boat drifting away
towards the ocean horizon
into the unknown and far

As the sun sets
the crowd starts to leave
the sky turns red
and after a while i see the first stars
of the night.

The waves regain their strength
and start to jump higher

oh! these waves have the strength
to break the rock to sand
in the ocean was born the fate of land
Into the the ocean does everything return

the time spent on the beach
alone or with a friend
remains in the memory till the end
the sea wind soothes the soul and the mind
All my worries look trivial
and I have gained the calm strength of the sea.

the waves erase the footprints
on the beach and make a new
beginning for the fresh sun

some birds love to dive
into the ocean waters
and catch the fish
in the light of last hours

one can see the fun of nature
in the play of the small silly birds
with the encroaching waves

As the sun sets on the horizon
I feel the silence take over me
lost in utter quite
i loose all sense of surrounding

simple things that make me happy

1.Taking out my dog on a morning walk. My dog wakes me up from sleep and waits at the door and looks at me intently till i wear my slippers and clutch the leach in my hand.
2. when I see my washing sink empty of used vessels. It is such a pleasure to see the sink clear and neat.
3. When I see the smile on my son's face. He makes happy with all the question he ask me.
4. When my son and my dog spend time together, running after each other and fighting.
5. when i learn a new tune on my piano
6. when i listen to soft jazz on 94.7 fm
7. when i meet one of my old customers at the pharmacy and have a little chat with them about mundane things.
8. its a pleasure camping and trialing with my son and my dog
9. Drinking fruit juice with my son at juice-it-up
10. to see my pay check in my bank deposited
11. Of course the sunrise,sunset,clear starry sky are fabulous. Appreciating nature gives us hope and admiration for life and sense of connectivity with the universe.
Man cannot pollute these far way nature. They remind man of beauty of nature.

I am not

My bones
My skin
my nose
my face
my fingers
my feet
my penis
my skull
my thoughts

I am above them. I am consciousness.

Child questions why

I like the child so innocent and gay
I like his smile and joyful play
He has questions and questions
Everything is a big why
I can only answers some questions
And leave the rest with don’t know why

I know this child will grow up
And stop questioning and believe in unchanging reality
I hope he does not stop questioning life
I hope he finds answers to why

The world is a mystery
that wise men quarrel to know its origin
We live here only a short while
and my love for this child
is unexpressable.
Love is the answer
Oh child that we may play together
and we exist to play and not live alone

First 2 pages of X's Autobiography

I am X and I am a male. I feel that I am specially talented and gifted in some things. I got a good education in one of the finest schools of my country. When I was at school, I was fine at sports and competed sternly in everything. Even when I was a teenager and when I had to learn new tricks to impress friends and may be girl friends, I competed for the best looking women. I wanted all best things to happen to me because I worked hard and was intelligent. I felt I deserved the best things in life.

What is life about anyway? There is so much competition and one has to work hard to stand out. If hard work is not enough one has to be worldly wise and know what to do and how to achieve what one desires.

Winning is all that matters at the end of the day. Who cares about the losers? I got all the attention I needed from my parents and friends because I was better than others. Everyone encouraged me to do even better. To tell you the truth, things did not come to me easy. I had to work hard even study all night many days to achieve what I wanted. True, life is not that way for everyone. Some get lucky and can win a lottery. But people like me who do not have any predestined luck; there is no way to achieve success than through hard work.

As days went by and I graduated from college things changed. Now I had to get a job and may be get married to a beautiful women. I never gave any deeper thinking into these matters. All I thought about is the best job I can get with my college degree. I somehow made it in the interviews and got a high paying job. While at job I worked overtime and impressed my boss. And soon my parents got me married to an equally intelligent woman and we bore two children in a couple of years.

The point is that I do not regret anything I did. I suppose the goal of the game has been achieved by me. I have never thought about what I was supposed to do with my spare time. I started spending time with my family and started reading books and acquired new hobbies. Occasionally, I also did some adventures like going on a vacation to an island. I observed that I am in my thirties now and not as quick as I used to be as a child. My body has changed physiologically.

I had also been promoted to a management position in my company. I was good at taking care of my company. It gave me immense pleasure to see everybody salute me. Everybody respected me. But things were not the same forever. They changed. I felt, though I showed what a worldly wise person would say of a successful man, something was always missing in my life. I will confess something about my college life before I tell you the real problem I my life is now.

Though I had several friends, it was hard for me to believe in anybody. I would believe in a certain friend who would talk to me nicely but after several discussions I thought maybe that person in not worth trusting.

No one seems to understand my real problem. I felt that people were not as good as I am to them. I do a favor to them and they never return the way I did to them. I cannot understand why people are so selfish and thinking about their animal and immediate needs all the time. One day I gave a car ride to a friend of mine whom I though was getting into my inner circle of friends. I started to trust him. Let’s say his name is Y because I do not believe in real names; these real names are not worth mentioning. He had no car for himself. I worked all summer in my college canteen and avoided any parties or worthless spending and accumulated some money and got a car. Even my friend knows about how hard I worked to get the car. Rumor was that all my classmates know about how hard I worked to get the car. This ruthless friend I am talking about happily forgot about my help. He never mentioned about returning my favor in anyway. All his thoughts and actions proved that he happily forgot about my favor. But I could not avoid telling my secrets to him because I had no other friend close to me at that time. What could I do I had to talk to somebody. I also shared my deep emotions about the opposite sex and what really pricks me high in life.

He knew all my emotions and feeling. But later I felt that something was going wrong in our friendship. Sometimes he would take my car

without my permission. Although, I never showed my reluctance and behaved as if I had no bad thoughts about my friend, there was a surge of negativity in my emotions and thoughts. I felt that he never respected my hard work I expended on the car and he took me for granted. Why nice people get mistreated? Why? Thoughts like these killed me. I acted as if I bore no evil feeling towards my friend. There was a side in me who liked him, but the majority of my feeling revolted now. I had to do something. I felt he was reading my thoughts and emotions to use me. Unconsciously, I was also doing the same on him.

Then an opportune moment came to implement my negativity. For sometime now I felt that I needed no car and also questioned why I originally be fooled to own a car. I can walk to the classrooms and walk a little further to get the weekly groceries. I may waste sometime walking but now I felt better not using my car.

I probably would have used my car if my friend did not use it. Now I do not feel like touching the car. Sometimes I also felt like maybe my friend really owns the car because he uses it daily. The clever ideal I got was to deflate the tires so that no one can use it. Anyway I was not using it why should my friend use it.

I spent a lot of time on how and when to do it. If my friend thought he could read my thoughts he would have never guessed what I am for. That gave me a happy smirk. I choose a midnight and I finally immobilized my car. To my surprise my friend asked me why I deflated my tires and he was drinking alcohol with other ruthless friends of his when he saw me in that act. I was silent for a moment and did not speak. What could I say other than that I was doing the right thing? That was the end of our relationship. I felt insecure; He knew all my secrets, I hoped he does not spread them all to my classmates or black mail me. Luckily, my friend never spread my secrets outside. But sometimes when I looked at smiling junta of Y’s friends I felt they all knew about it.

I felt that marriage would end all questions of trust. But it did not turn out to be that way. I have to confess my married life was short lived and I was divorced after five years. What can you do when your spouse is not trustworthy? My children are grown up now and I feel they got greater share of their mothers genes then mine. Children are not worth a dime, I say now. My employees showed better trust than my children.

I loved them all the same. I mostly kept my feeling to myself. These are the first two pages of my autobiography. If you are interested I will send more pages. Let me know. Hope you get someone whom you can trust. It’s hard I know but do try. Remember when you fail blame others never yourself because you worked hard for it. You may sometimes feel why luck does not favor you. Life is not equal. Good people suffer and the wicked win. And it could be some other mysterious invisible had stopping your success. Also remember this world is there for your enjoyment. I know that there are always things that intervene our good intentions but what can anyone do when others do not understand us.

And finally thanks for reading. I feel I have purpose in life. And believe no one and think about yourself all the time. Our minds are programmed this way; do not try to change the iron law of the mind. All said, do not forget I love humanity. I do not show it in my actions lest others know my feelings and take advantage of me.

God, Body and Corpse

This body will be a corpse one day,

Shall I follow the trail of death

and fall for the lures of its desires?

Memory of pleasures of the body

can remind us of past excitements

but the memory of peace and bliss

that comes from silent meditation

of God is wiser to cultivate.

Memory of body pleasures is a

reminder of Death and the Memory

of God's peace is everlasting sunshine.